Monday, May 13, 2013

Who I Am Not - Epilogue



               I've been doing this for a while and I actually enjoy it. No strings, no attachments, except that one time, but I quickly got over that; he wasn't more important than my freedom. I know it sounds crazy but it’s true, doing this has made me realize a great many things. All of which are good. Well, I take that back, a few things that I have realized aren't good, bad you would say if you're all goodie two shoes, but not me, they aren't bad but they aren't good; mutual, I like that word for this in between. Oddly, that description is perfect for what I've been doing. Mutual. Let's muse over that word for a moment...
               There, we've mused. As you can see I've got little patience for much of anything. If I have any patients at all, it's always up in the air with me.
               Oh, right, I haven't told you what it is that I have been doing. Well, here in the US, we call it being a whore... I don't know about that definition though. That is the definition that someone who wasn't doing what I'm doing came up with. I like to call it experiencing and experimenting. That's all. Saying that I'm whoring around makes it sound nasty and like I'm dirty and have an STD or that I'm a prostitute, both of which are untrue. I am a young woman, 23 to be exact. I shower every day, therefore I am not dirty, but to further prove this, I live in an apartment on the north side of town. I have a steady job as an assistant for McTuran and Holmes. I visit my doctor every six months for my check up and it always ends with good results. I am not what society thinks I am. I am a clean, smart, upper middle class woman who just so happens to enjoy sex and intense emotions received from extreme pleasure from another person, man or woman. I am not gay or a lesbian, nor am I confused. I am bisexual, meaning I feel attracted to both men and women. This does not make me a whore, skank, or a slut; this makes me a bisexual woman.

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